So I have been through a lot these past two months. I lost my grandfather on my mom's side June 2009, and now I have lost my grandfather on my dad's side July 2009. So I have lost both grandfathers back to back, and it seriously sucks.
It has been really hard and at times I find myself questioning God as to why he took them already, and why he couldnt have just made them better and heal them of their sickness so that they could live on to see at least 100. I dont understand it at times why things happen, but i guess they have to happen for a reason.
It sucks to lose both so close together, and i know its going to be hard for a while, but i have an amazing best friend who is awesome and has been there for me it sucks that we live in two different places, but she is truly awesome.
I dont know how i am going to be after the funeral but i have been closed off from family, because i just need me time. I am afraid that i may go into a depression and i dont know what could happen.
This truly sucks and i am tired..................
